To answer your question...

You're probably wondering by now why this broke bombshell doesn't go out and get a full-time job with a real paycheck. Let me fill you in...

I had a job in public relations for city government. I absolutely loved my job. It was part-time while I was in school with a verbal promise to go full time when I graduated. It never happened. Instead, I had a boss who told me I couldn't work for him and own my own cake & cookie business. Things got heated. It didn't end well. I should have known early that his quirks would stop being funny and one day be downright scary, but I didn't. Live and learn.

My brother, a teacher, suggested I take the CBEST (California test for teachers) and become a substitute for he and his friends until I found something permanent. I took his advice and am now halfway through my second school year. I enjoy it more than I care to admit. Every day is different. It allows me to be with people during the day and still have time for cakes.

Now your next question might be something about why I don't just become a teacher. I've considered that. Then I consider the student loans. I've also wondered if becoming a teacher means putting off my bakery dream permanently. So many questions. My boyfriend is on the fence here, too. He knows I love being a sub but also fears the student loan bill. One step forward, two steps back.

If I did choose to become a teacher then I need to make sure my student loans are up to date before I request more money. Lord knows I don't have the cash to pay for it out of pocket. I was gung ho about the teaching credential over the summer then quickly realized I had no way to pay for it and my defaulted loans meant I couldn't borrow any more. This semester of school will help sort that out and put me in a good position to choose my next path. Teachers in my district make decent money. It's a smart move but I'm still hesitant.

Any thoughts?